The Pin and The Rubber Band of Happiness

The Pin and The Rubber Band of Happiness

What if I told you that the human pursuit of happiness is absolutely futile? That how happy or unhappy you are right now is dictated not by some objective measure, but rather the result of brain chemistry dictated by your genes? That evolution saw it fit to make us...
You Work With What You Have

You Work With What You Have

I realize that some of my essays have gotten pretty grim as of late. My parents, who occasionally read my blog, are probably terrified to see me exploring such difficult themes. But what—as I increasingly find myself asking—am I supposed to write about, if not cancer...
Photography, the Exercise in Paying Attention

Photography, the Exercise in Paying Attention

They say a writer is someone on whom nothing is lost. No wonder. Writing is paying attention. To people mostly, but also the world at large and your own inner life. I recently discovered that photography could be all those things too. Maybe more. It calms me to take...
Look After Your Loved Ones

Look After Your Loved Ones

The problems I have in life cannot be solved with money. The cost of Edyta’s cancer treatment is covered by German public healthcare. She’s staying in Charité, one of the world’s top hospitals, her ward under the direction of the world’s leading experts in treating...
I Am Still Here

I Am Still Here

How do you write when you cannot focus? How do you concentrate when things happening in your life are too big to handle, too private to share publicly, and too painful to ignore? In the past, whenever I sat down to write, I kept to the classic style of writing; the...